Quote of the month;

Quote of the Month;
Never was easy.
"Grow up and accept it"

Friday, 1 May 2015

The horrible events of today and the amazing events of tomorrow

Today I was taken advantage of. 
Tomorrow I will be the happiest ever.

Today at school was all fine, I was sitting with my friends in all my lessons, we watched a movie in one of them due to the absence of teachers. And everything was fine, I had fun today at school. After school I was going to my friends house, we normally hang out in the park for a bit and then go back to her house and watch a movie. 
There was 8 of us, 4 girls, 4 boys. My ex was meant to go but he dropped out, so it was his best friend and the others were also friends of his. We spent 3 hours at the park we layed on the grass in a circle all laying on each other. I was laying on the guy that had been in relationships with all my friends apart from me. And then I was cold so he gave me his jacket and cuddled me to keep me warm. I thought nothing of it because this is just what he does. Until we got back to my friends house, I was laying on the sofa with my head in his lap when he placed his hand on my boob. I told him to get off but it kept happening and then he told me to get off because I kept shouting at him so I stopped and let him because I was really comfy. He them rested his hand there and squeezed every now and then. He asked me if I cared and I was like yes I do but I don't wanna move. He carried on. He then unzipped my jumper and stuck his hand in my bra. I shouted at him them and got up. He was really disappointed, but I don't honestly care, he can't do that. My ex is his friend. When I went back into the room I was with my friend and he looked at me funny when I sat on the other chair. I hugged him when he went home but I can see it being a bit awkward from now on, it wasn't a good move seeing as he is my boy best friend. Hopefully all will be forgotten. I feel guilty for some reason. I don't know why, I will sleep on it.

Now for the amazing events if tomorrow!
I AM SEEING UNION J AND THE VAMPS AT THE O2 ARENA IN LONDON!!! SO EXCITED RIGHT NOW! Don't know how I'm meant to sleep tonight. I love them so much!!

Thank you for reading, if anyone has any advice on what to do about that guy friend of mine please help I'm desperate!

Much love, 
Teenage Dreamer 


  1. Not going to lie, he seems like an asshole. The first time you said you didn't want him doing that he should have realized you were uncomfortable with what he was doing and stopped. Knowing that you were uncomfortable he carried on. It's scary how boys can't take no as an answer. Maybe say you were talking to someone? I know it seems stupid but boys won't try anything on if you're with another boy. They don't touch another boys 'property'. It makes me feel physically sick and we need to change how boys treat girls but that's how it is at the moment and i it gets him to stop being like that to you then maybe it's worth it. Good Luck twin.

    1. Them not touching another boys 'property' makes me feel like the bone and the boy like a dog. I hate this. Wouldn't I still count as my exs 'property' it doesn't seem right that he would do that to one of his friends. And is there any reason for me to feel ashamed? because I do. Thanks twin :)

    2. Don't feel ashamed because you felt uncomfortable! He should feel ashamed not you:)

    3. Everything I ever do I always feel bad after. I don't even know how I'm meant to act around him anymore. This is so confusing! :/

    4. I think you should text him or ask to meet up and explain how uncomfortable you felt about it all but you never meant for anything to turn awkward between you.

    5. I think I'm going to meet up with him and group of my friends tomorrow so I will pull him aside then. Thanks you, you really help me. :) xx

    6. I understand what it's like and it;s not a good situation! No worries i think that's a good decision:)xx

    7. I didn't get to see him today go talk about the whole situation. But I have spoken to my friends about it and they both agree that he was way out of line. As long as he doesn't go bragging to my ex/one of close friends about it all I will be fine. I don't really want to talk about it with him at school because people always overhear my private conversations and it ends up being spread. I think I might just see how things are tomorrow and if they are bad I will talk to him, if everything is normal I will forget.

  2. Good idea. I hate how everyone always finds out about stuff at school. If he does mention it then just say you don't feel the need to have a proper conversation but say you weren't comfortable with how it went.

    1. School is just that type of place unfortunately. Thank you for the help xx